Assalamualaikum,
It's been a long time since I have updated my blog.The reason for me to be writing today is I have a confession to make.Today,I have done a big sin that have been haunting my mind thoughout the day.My iman was really weak at that point and I had lost to my desire and syaitan.After that,I've noticed that,I was truly weak when Allah test me.I forgot about Allah S.W.T.....about Muhammad S.A.W....and about Islam.I regret my sin and I pray Allah S.W.T to forgive my sin.Insyallah.
Another thing that I want to talk about is the muslim nowadays.Recently,I noticed that a lot about me have change since I was still in form 1.I was shy,quiet and rarely had any conversation with anyone.But now,I think I can talk my heart out with anyon...and that is the problem ! If I was given a choice,I would like to be like how I was at form 1.It's not that I hate talking but everytime I talk ,I'm attentive to talk about other people and when I talk about other people,I will sometimes ,I mean always talk bad about people.This is a thing,really!Imagine if talking bad about a people will make Allah S.W.T furious toward us for a day,how many times have we make Allah S.W.T furious in a single day? I think silenting ourself is sometimes better than being someone who always talk bad about people.
This afternoon,after Friday prayers,I went playing futsal with a couple of my friend.I was the first to arrive and soon 2-3 of my friends also arrive.Well,what really attracted me was,one of my friend was looking at his very passionately,so I ask him what he was watching and my mind was blanked when he answer me.He was watching porn from him phone.I was a little shocked to hear that.Is that what teenager are doing now?Making Allah S.W.T mad? I was about to give him a little advise but who am I to advise people,when I had done sin bigger than that.All I can do is pry to Allah S.W.T open his heart to reliaze him mistake.
It was 8.30 when I was at my tuition centre.I was studying physic with my physic teacher,Mr.Lee.We talked about a lot of stuff before actually learning anything.One of the thing that we talked about was our love life.In my life,I had never have any girlfriend simply because I'm not really in the right age.I am still a child who is still trying to open his eyes at the world whom Allah S.W.T perfectly created.Meanwhile,Mr.Lee is also single.I asked him if he have any girlfriends and he answer no.He told me he hadn't anyone special.At that his age,I would expect at least a wife.He advised me that I shouldn't really a girlfriend ,instead I should have a girl,who is alo my friend that I can hang out like going shopping together but just and only just as a friend.Well,that really got me thinking of wanting a girlfriend...well, I can not simply want girls to be attracted to me,maybe one day ,I'll find someone who is quiet,smart,love Islam as much as I do to be my girlfriend and maybe as my wife.Insyallah.
Well , think that all for this post.Sorry if its quite long,maybe I'll shorten it in the future.
Insyallah and Assalamualaikum
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