I'm done....

Assalamualaikum,

What makes you so special? Is it that you are a genius? or maybe you think you can do things that other people can't? Eversince I was little, I never thought myself as anything special but just a boy that will one day grow up and die just like the rest of us.I never knew the meaning of 'being loved' . I never thought anyone care about me.So,I started to care and take notice about people around me. I started ignoring the fact that I have need and decided that I was the sidekick or maybe a henchman to other people better than me.I've lost confidence in myself.I lost my will to talk freely to other people.I hated myself for being a spoiled brat. I was the blur and stupid boy who is lazy and never pass up his homework.

 So,figured out what make you special yet? Not to burst you joy bubble but once you see the odd,you are just an organism. I respect other who can proudly say , " I'm special and I know it "  or " who said I can't anything" . Those people deserve a medal but how much are they left of that kind of people.In conclusion , I'm not trying to literally moral you guys down. I'm just angry to the fact that I'm weak.Courage and bravery was never my thing. I'm just a lonely dude waiting for someone to fucking care.

I'm at the edge again.......

Assalamualaikum to my fellow readers,


Its been a quite a long time ever since I've updated this blog.A lot of things had happened to me.Well,let me start by saying 'Alhamdullillah' because I've scored 9A 1B for my Ujian 1. I was really shocked when the teacher gave me the result. I've never dreamed of getting this high for my studies.Netherless to say , I am grateful to Allah S.W.T. for always blessing me eventhough I have a lot of sin that I need to atoned.Last Friday, I was one of the school PRS to become a facilitor at a prefect camp at Bagan Lalang Beach Resort. It was all fun ( eventhough I was voted as the most hated facilitor at the camp ) . At that camp,I also was given the task to become the cameraman with Ammar Anuar ( ex-prefect ) .I've now noticed that eventhough I have absolute 0% talent at photography, I still like to take peoples's smile. I mean,come on.....SMILES WHAT MAKE ME SMILE. stupid eh?

 Recently,people have been asking me about my relationship with a Nur ( not a real name ) . As sad as it seem, me and her are totally done. We thought that it would really be better if we didn't have that 'special' relationship.The truth is I was really...I MEAN REALLY.....sad to heard that but what can I do,maybe it wasn't meant to be between me and Nur. Life have been really dull for me. Problem uprise and answers never even show up. All I wanted was someone I could share my thought to. I have this problem about girls. I don't know if its me but am I the only one who likes to talk more to girls rather that to boys? No offense to the male homosapien but I think talking to girls really ease my stress. They are more thoughtful and also understanding about me but one of my problem with girls is ..... I get attracted to them to easily. What I mean is when I talk with a girl and I feel comfortable talking to them or they are kinda thoughtful to me , I feel like ... I want to be by their side. Weird eh? Well, that what you expect from a weird dude like me.

 

Know Yourself Test ;)

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

This morning,all the form 5 students in my school had a test where you have to list out 5 good thing and 5 bad thing about yourself. For some like me,I kinda got a little enthusiastic about the test.So,in order to reduce the enthusiastic level ,which by the way hadn't changed since this morning,I decided to blog out about 5 of my good points and 5 of my weaknesses.For your information, this facts are what I think I'm good at,so,don't start telling me ," You think your soooooooo good at this and that...," or perhap like ," You think highly of yourself asshole." . I am what I am and I know myself better than anyone else.Other than that, enjoy !!!

My Good Points

1 . I like to do sports

I wish I just cycle a good bike to places I never imagine I could cycle to

 If you've invited me to go jogging or play football,you can expect me to be there early than planned.I mean ,I FREAKIN LOVE SPORTS.I don't really care if its as easy as just walking or as vigorous as running a marathon,it's still fun and beneficial to me.

2. I'm someone who likes to do new stuff

 Paintball,colouring using your hands or even scuba diving? I'd love to do those things.New stuff excites me more that ever.I mean,the feeling when experiencing new stuff really is priceless.Remember the first time you ride your bicycle when your 6 year old or the first time you met a new person who was a totally stranger to you but is now your best friend for life? The adrenaline is killing me !!!

3.I always think positive thoughts

I always seem to think good thing about stuff even thought that its a bad or unpositive thing.For example,when I am scolded by the teachers,I always think that they only scolded me because they want me to become a better person and to not repeat my mistakes,besides,I was scolded probably because I did something that the teacher dislikes.Another example is when I'm sick,I always remind myself that this is one of Allah's test,which means that Allah still loves me.

4. I ( kinda ) like to volunteer myself to those in need

Together we can make a better tomorrow

 Last year,Japan was struck with a terrible earthquake that had seize life of thousands.As I read more about the news,my heart was crying thinking about the people there who had insufficient food,shelter and other things that were important for them to live.I was really mad but at who? At myself of course!!! I wasn't able to help Japan in any way.All that I can do is pray that Japan will overcome this disaster and revive again as a prestigious country it once were.Once I've become a doctor,I will ensure that I will be volunteering to help those in need as much as I can.

5.I am ambitious

Guess who? I'm the dumb kid you sayed was meant to be garbage of society.Now,I cure society.

Get 5A for UPSR - check

Live through 2011 - check

Win the Naza Football Tournament in Singapore - check

Become a doctor and cure Cancer -.......emmmm,in process...

 Possible things where once considered impossible.I never stop dreaming about what I dream to be.The possibilities is infinite,we just have to think it out using our minds.People who say that you can't be this or that are prisoners who had lost to the reality of life where the truth is we are people who can change the world.Live life to the fullest and dream big cause what you dreamt maybe what you gonna be.

p/s : My weaknesses will be post in the next post.Gotta sleep now.Bye2 and assalamualaikum.

...to be continue

Ba-ba-ba-ba-BADASS !!!!

Assalamualaikum,

 It has been the 11th day in 2012 have already been a more complicated year that 2011.I mean,a lot of seriously crazy and whacky ,happy and sad (mostly sad) thing have occur throughout this 10 days.BEWARE ; everything that I am gonna write know may make you think , " what the fuck do I care?".So,unless you don't wanna read,I suggest you leave.I maybe over-reacting but who cares,I'm the writer.



On the 1st day of 2012,I kinda accidentally confess to someone I like. It was sort of the first time I did something this close to having a relationship.I can't tell you guys what happen but I guess I've became more understanding about relationship after that event.Also ,I got a new phone that night !!!

 

On the next day and so on,school was like a different place for me.I like my classmate and teachers,they're kinda friendly.So,I guess I was lucky.I hope that I could have a normal year where I don't really get stressed out just because SPM test.One of the things that I noticed different than the rest of the other years is I gotta go to my tuition centre almost everyday after school for about 8 hours.

Hey you,stop talking and pay attention.

I also hope I will find more people who is willing to make a study group with me this year.I not good with my studies especially at Add math,Prinsip Perakaunan and Biologi.I want people who is really serious when in a study group,not the kind of people who would just talk thoughout the study group.They really makes me want to flip the bird at them.By the way,to those who wants to study together,just ask me,I would be my pleasure to help you guy and without knowing it,I'm helping myself.







I guess that's all,assalamualaikum

What a hectic start ...

Assalamualaikum,

How is your first day of 2012? Fun,bad or just another freaking same plain old day?

"5....4...3....2....1.....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! " .That's about what I guess is going on at Dataran Merdeka during the fireworks...what? did I went there? HECK NO !! I guess I didn't have the opputurnity . Beside,Dataran Merdeka is far from home.

 I got a new haircut in the evening.I imagine myself to be like this after the haircut.....

......but the reality is my hair looks like this .....

 And thats why I hate to go to the barber shop.Also this evening,I got to play football for the last time with some of my friends as they will be leaving to boarding school soon.I was kinda sad because things gonna get back to the way they used to,nobody playing football anymore.Just a couple ago,my mom said something that really made my day.........," Lets find you a phone" ......i love you mum.

So we when to Ampang Point and bought....jeng...jeng.....jeng....the SAMSUNG GALAXY YOUNG !!!!

What a way to start the year,hope you guy have a good year ...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

......and assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu :D

New Year Resolution !!!!

Assalamualaikum everyone,

As you all know,its like a tradition to renew own new year resolution every year.So,without wasting any time,here is my 2012 new year resolution (...but I dunno if I can make it )  :

• I wanna grow a muscular figure 

Well,for this resolution I don't really mean like this ....

....but it would really be awesome if I can get my body to be at an optimum level in health and shape

• I want to get straight A's for my SPM

If you guys didn't know,I'm gonna take my SPM ( Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia ) this year and I want to get a good result so that I can get a scholarship because learning in the medical field really eats you money......

                                                                                             






































......well,thats about it.I don't want to be the kind of person who has a lot of resolution but zero effort.Like George Washington always says ,"Ukur baju pada badan sendiri". By the way, in order to make 2012 a little funner than 2011,I've set a few activities for me to do this year ,every month.So,here there are :

Junk-Free January

 For this challenge, I will not be eating anything junkie like McDonald burger or pizza.I'm goona stick to healthier food like cereal,vegetable and so on.





Fun February

I'm crazy , u jelly?

Fun February is quite tricky.The thing is ,I got to do new but crazy thing and tape it in a video,EVERY SINGLE DAY. For example like shouting in the middle of a crowd,I dunno crazy stuff .







Messy March

Argghh !!! I'm gonna hate myself for this.If your unaware,Messy March mainy means that I will be a stinky,messy,unclean kind of guy.No hair cut or shaving during this month.My reputation gonna drop HARD!!!





Awesome April

I'm not really gonna be awesome in Awesome April,its more like me being a good friend,a loyal listener and a better person.During this month,you won't be seeing me being mad at anyone or anything.I'll smile all day long even when I'm sad.I'll be Awesome Ammar xP






Grey May


Grey May....better buy some clothes.Basically,I just have to wear grey clothing for a whole month ( except for school xP ) .Grey shirt,grey trousers,grey singlet and even grey underwear.




Juiced June

 JUST DRINK ALL JUICE !!!  I'm might be dumb but for this month's Juiced June ,I drink all the freaking juice I can find,even if I gotta buy with all my money !!! JUICE FTW !!!





Charity July


 The photo didn't really help,did it? Charity July is the time of the year where I will save my money,either my school money or my pocket money, and then donate them to any charity place or mosque.Good Guy Greg asked me to.


































........."wait,was that all? What about August,September and the rest?" you asked

    -  Well,from August so on ,I gotta put 140% more concentration for my studies because SPM is near,my dear.

"You just messin with us,you'll never do those challenges"

   -  To those people I say ......

2011 is a great year but 2012 might be better !!!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu,

 As we all know, 2011 is almost at the peak and it is the rise of 2012.A lot have happen in 2011 and to be honest,I'm really gonna miss this year because alot have change in me thoughtout the year.I have felt new things that I never felt in the past year.Here a little summary to my long story.If your willing to read until the end of this post,I'll really appreaciate it.

 Well for my personality,it's quite tricky.A lot of my seniors adviced me that Form 4 isn't a year you would want to call a 'honeymoon year'.They sayed your regret if you don't take Form 4 seriously and study hard so that Form 5 would be easier.So,took the challenge and study like hell during the first 4 month of 2011.Everyday I took extra classes ( cause I'm not a really smart kid) and while people were idolizing Justin Bieber and mastubating, I for once study all the time,during the recess,during sport time and even where I'll on a holiday.Life wasn't fun at all to be honest.I was really the ultimate Forever Alone guy as I wasn't too close with anyone,even my classmates. But the good news is......

   I SCORED 6A DURING MY FIRST TEST !!!!!

....I know you guy are like " WTF Ammar,I've seen a lot of people that scored straight A's " .Well,for your infomation,I'm a slow kinda guy.So,I thought that all my hard work really paid off. But eventually,I've became lazy and lazy as I was overconfident with my results.The first mistake was I got caught up with 9gag ( It really steal your soul) and my social life.



 As my mid term came closer,I became really worried.I thought life would end for me as I had lost track on my studies.But I never gave up,so I studied till the eleventh clock.You could say I was prety much lost hope of passing this test.During the test,I was like this : ---->





 After the test, I feel really stressed out.I couldn't think about anything at all and I could see my future as only a farmer.Week pass like days,days pass like that, and the result came out.I scored 5A on my main subjects and 3A on my sub subject.I was relieve because my mom really wants me to be good at my studies.After that test,I thought about splitting my time carefully.I thought it would end up 50% study , 50% other thing but boy was I wrong.It eventually became 10% study,20% social life ,50% sleep and 20% 9gag ( I lost to 9gag )



 Then came Test 2, I tried to study at the last minute like my last test.Also,I didn't really care much about this test.During the last day of examination,I was like...

Screw this test, I'm a fucking genius

...but a last,I really was dissappointed when the result came in,I only got 2A and 1 failed subject.At that time my face was like....

FUCK MY LIFE!!!!

 So,the moral of the story is.....
Don't be a lazy asshole,study hard but smart or your probably gonna end up like me.....

......Eat banana,it has Potasium,just saying