I'm done....

Assalamualaikum,

What makes you so special? Is it that you are a genius? or maybe you think you can do things that other people can't? Eversince I was little, I never thought myself as anything special but just a boy that will one day grow up and die just like the rest of us.I never knew the meaning of 'being loved' . I never thought anyone care about me.So,I started to care and take notice about people around me. I started ignoring the fact that I have need and decided that I was the sidekick or maybe a henchman to other people better than me.I've lost confidence in myself.I lost my will to talk freely to other people.I hated myself for being a spoiled brat. I was the blur and stupid boy who is lazy and never pass up his homework.

 So,figured out what make you special yet? Not to burst you joy bubble but once you see the odd,you are just an organism. I respect other who can proudly say , " I'm special and I know it "  or " who said I can't anything" . Those people deserve a medal but how much are they left of that kind of people.In conclusion , I'm not trying to literally moral you guys down. I'm just angry to the fact that I'm weak.Courage and bravery was never my thing. I'm just a lonely dude waiting for someone to fucking care.

I'm at the edge again.......

Assalamualaikum to my fellow readers,


Its been a quite a long time ever since I've updated this blog.A lot of things had happened to me.Well,let me start by saying 'Alhamdullillah' because I've scored 9A 1B for my Ujian 1. I was really shocked when the teacher gave me the result. I've never dreamed of getting this high for my studies.Netherless to say , I am grateful to Allah S.W.T. for always blessing me eventhough I have a lot of sin that I need to atoned.Last Friday, I was one of the school PRS to become a facilitor at a prefect camp at Bagan Lalang Beach Resort. It was all fun ( eventhough I was voted as the most hated facilitor at the camp ) . At that camp,I also was given the task to become the cameraman with Ammar Anuar ( ex-prefect ) .I've now noticed that eventhough I have absolute 0% talent at photography, I still like to take peoples's smile. I mean,come on.....SMILES WHAT MAKE ME SMILE. stupid eh?

 Recently,people have been asking me about my relationship with a Nur ( not a real name ) . As sad as it seem, me and her are totally done. We thought that it would really be better if we didn't have that 'special' relationship.The truth is I was really...I MEAN REALLY.....sad to heard that but what can I do,maybe it wasn't meant to be between me and Nur. Life have been really dull for me. Problem uprise and answers never even show up. All I wanted was someone I could share my thought to. I have this problem about girls. I don't know if its me but am I the only one who likes to talk more to girls rather that to boys? No offense to the male homosapien but I think talking to girls really ease my stress. They are more thoughtful and also understanding about me but one of my problem with girls is ..... I get attracted to them to easily. What I mean is when I talk with a girl and I feel comfortable talking to them or they are kinda thoughtful to me , I feel like ... I want to be by their side. Weird eh? Well, that what you expect from a weird dude like me.

 

Know Yourself Test ;)

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

This morning,all the form 5 students in my school had a test where you have to list out 5 good thing and 5 bad thing about yourself. For some like me,I kinda got a little enthusiastic about the test.So,in order to reduce the enthusiastic level ,which by the way hadn't changed since this morning,I decided to blog out about 5 of my good points and 5 of my weaknesses.For your information, this facts are what I think I'm good at,so,don't start telling me ," You think your soooooooo good at this and that...," or perhap like ," You think highly of yourself asshole." . I am what I am and I know myself better than anyone else.Other than that, enjoy !!!

My Good Points

1 . I like to do sports

I wish I just cycle a good bike to places I never imagine I could cycle to

 If you've invited me to go jogging or play football,you can expect me to be there early than planned.I mean ,I FREAKIN LOVE SPORTS.I don't really care if its as easy as just walking or as vigorous as running a marathon,it's still fun and beneficial to me.

2. I'm someone who likes to do new stuff

 Paintball,colouring using your hands or even scuba diving? I'd love to do those things.New stuff excites me more that ever.I mean,the feeling when experiencing new stuff really is priceless.Remember the first time you ride your bicycle when your 6 year old or the first time you met a new person who was a totally stranger to you but is now your best friend for life? The adrenaline is killing me !!!

3.I always think positive thoughts

I always seem to think good thing about stuff even thought that its a bad or unpositive thing.For example,when I am scolded by the teachers,I always think that they only scolded me because they want me to become a better person and to not repeat my mistakes,besides,I was scolded probably because I did something that the teacher dislikes.Another example is when I'm sick,I always remind myself that this is one of Allah's test,which means that Allah still loves me.

4. I ( kinda ) like to volunteer myself to those in need

Together we can make a better tomorrow

 Last year,Japan was struck with a terrible earthquake that had seize life of thousands.As I read more about the news,my heart was crying thinking about the people there who had insufficient food,shelter and other things that were important for them to live.I was really mad but at who? At myself of course!!! I wasn't able to help Japan in any way.All that I can do is pray that Japan will overcome this disaster and revive again as a prestigious country it once were.Once I've become a doctor,I will ensure that I will be volunteering to help those in need as much as I can.

5.I am ambitious

Guess who? I'm the dumb kid you sayed was meant to be garbage of society.Now,I cure society.

Get 5A for UPSR - check

Live through 2011 - check

Win the Naza Football Tournament in Singapore - check

Become a doctor and cure Cancer -.......emmmm,in process...

 Possible things where once considered impossible.I never stop dreaming about what I dream to be.The possibilities is infinite,we just have to think it out using our minds.People who say that you can't be this or that are prisoners who had lost to the reality of life where the truth is we are people who can change the world.Live life to the fullest and dream big cause what you dreamt maybe what you gonna be.

p/s : My weaknesses will be post in the next post.Gotta sleep now.Bye2 and assalamualaikum.

...to be continue

Ba-ba-ba-ba-BADASS !!!!

Assalamualaikum,

 It has been the 11th day in 2012 have already been a more complicated year that 2011.I mean,a lot of seriously crazy and whacky ,happy and sad (mostly sad) thing have occur throughout this 10 days.BEWARE ; everything that I am gonna write know may make you think , " what the fuck do I care?".So,unless you don't wanna read,I suggest you leave.I maybe over-reacting but who cares,I'm the writer.



On the 1st day of 2012,I kinda accidentally confess to someone I like. It was sort of the first time I did something this close to having a relationship.I can't tell you guys what happen but I guess I've became more understanding about relationship after that event.Also ,I got a new phone that night !!!

 

On the next day and so on,school was like a different place for me.I like my classmate and teachers,they're kinda friendly.So,I guess I was lucky.I hope that I could have a normal year where I don't really get stressed out just because SPM test.One of the things that I noticed different than the rest of the other years is I gotta go to my tuition centre almost everyday after school for about 8 hours.

Hey you,stop talking and pay attention.

I also hope I will find more people who is willing to make a study group with me this year.I not good with my studies especially at Add math,Prinsip Perakaunan and Biologi.I want people who is really serious when in a study group,not the kind of people who would just talk thoughout the study group.They really makes me want to flip the bird at them.By the way,to those who wants to study together,just ask me,I would be my pleasure to help you guy and without knowing it,I'm helping myself.







I guess that's all,assalamualaikum

What a hectic start ...

Assalamualaikum,

How is your first day of 2012? Fun,bad or just another freaking same plain old day?

"5....4...3....2....1.....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! " .That's about what I guess is going on at Dataran Merdeka during the fireworks...what? did I went there? HECK NO !! I guess I didn't have the opputurnity . Beside,Dataran Merdeka is far from home.

 I got a new haircut in the evening.I imagine myself to be like this after the haircut.....

......but the reality is my hair looks like this .....

 And thats why I hate to go to the barber shop.Also this evening,I got to play football for the last time with some of my friends as they will be leaving to boarding school soon.I was kinda sad because things gonna get back to the way they used to,nobody playing football anymore.Just a couple ago,my mom said something that really made my day.........," Lets find you a phone" ......i love you mum.

So we when to Ampang Point and bought....jeng...jeng.....jeng....the SAMSUNG GALAXY YOUNG !!!!

What a way to start the year,hope you guy have a good year ...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

......and assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu :D