I'm done....

Assalamualaikum,

What makes you so special? Is it that you are a genius? or maybe you think you can do things that other people can't? Eversince I was little, I never thought myself as anything special but just a boy that will one day grow up and die just like the rest of us.I never knew the meaning of 'being loved' . I never thought anyone care about me.So,I started to care and take notice about people around me. I started ignoring the fact that I have need and decided that I was the sidekick or maybe a henchman to other people better than me.I've lost confidence in myself.I lost my will to talk freely to other people.I hated myself for being a spoiled brat. I was the blur and stupid boy who is lazy and never pass up his homework.

 So,figured out what make you special yet? Not to burst you joy bubble but once you see the odd,you are just an organism. I respect other who can proudly say , " I'm special and I know it "  or " who said I can't anything" . Those people deserve a medal but how much are they left of that kind of people.In conclusion , I'm not trying to literally moral you guys down. I'm just angry to the fact that I'm weak.Courage and bravery was never my thing. I'm just a lonely dude waiting for someone to fucking care.

I'm at the edge again.......

Assalamualaikum to my fellow readers,


Its been a quite a long time ever since I've updated this blog.A lot of things had happened to me.Well,let me start by saying 'Alhamdullillah' because I've scored 9A 1B for my Ujian 1. I was really shocked when the teacher gave me the result. I've never dreamed of getting this high for my studies.Netherless to say , I am grateful to Allah S.W.T. for always blessing me eventhough I have a lot of sin that I need to atoned.Last Friday, I was one of the school PRS to become a facilitor at a prefect camp at Bagan Lalang Beach Resort. It was all fun ( eventhough I was voted as the most hated facilitor at the camp ) . At that camp,I also was given the task to become the cameraman with Ammar Anuar ( ex-prefect ) .I've now noticed that eventhough I have absolute 0% talent at photography, I still like to take peoples's smile. I mean,come on.....SMILES WHAT MAKE ME SMILE. stupid eh?

 Recently,people have been asking me about my relationship with a Nur ( not a real name ) . As sad as it seem, me and her are totally done. We thought that it would really be better if we didn't have that 'special' relationship.The truth is I was really...I MEAN REALLY.....sad to heard that but what can I do,maybe it wasn't meant to be between me and Nur. Life have been really dull for me. Problem uprise and answers never even show up. All I wanted was someone I could share my thought to. I have this problem about girls. I don't know if its me but am I the only one who likes to talk more to girls rather that to boys? No offense to the male homosapien but I think talking to girls really ease my stress. They are more thoughtful and also understanding about me but one of my problem with girls is ..... I get attracted to them to easily. What I mean is when I talk with a girl and I feel comfortable talking to them or they are kinda thoughtful to me , I feel like ... I want to be by their side. Weird eh? Well, that what you expect from a weird dude like me.